The Truth Comes Out

Now some people know me as the "hyper girl" some know me as "giggles" because I'm always in a happy mood but don't be to sure, don't judge a book by it's cover. I needed to get this off my chest before anyone can say anything to me. I find it hard to open up to people about being made fun of in school. I obviously stand out in a croud of people and I am not affraid to say what's on my mind (opinion wise). I feel alone in a crowded room of all my friends. A better analogy is I feel as though Im standing in the middle of a room full of people screaming at the top of my lungs and no one even hears it, no one looks up, nothing. Now almost everyone deals with some sort of depression sooner or later. I have had issues with bullying my whole life no matter what I do I will not fit in. I am very outspoken and sure when it comes to opinions. I may seem like the happiest person in the world sometimes, like I have a lot going for me, good grades, good friends nice family but I just keep all the little things kept up inside me without being able to open up. My friends may ask whats wrong with me but I keep everything bottled up inside my parents (mom) can see there is a problem, however telling her exactly whats wrong is hard I can't quite spit the words of my feelings out.

Life as a TEENAGE BABYSITTER

Babysitting, is a great stress and "birth" Control. I have always had a happy outgoing life and a friendly and OUT THERE personality which makes me appeal to younger kids. When I was 12 years old, I lived in this housing complex in Vegas and my best friend was a 9 year old. Now most of my friends are older than me and I'm the young one. I have a passion for making little kids laugh and have fun. I just love the innocence of their little minds. I have many people who I babysit for and I'm not the average baby sitter I enjoy every second I spend with the kids from feeding them dinner to putting them to bed. I usually work night jobs so that's the time I get with them and I am perfectly OK with that. I take pride in what I do and accomplish with them weather its teaching them how to play games or just the natural natures of life. I have received many drawings that kids have drawn me. They hang on my fridge or wall at all times. I love working with the smaller kids and watching them grow to a point of independence, it makes me happy that I might have had something to do with them turning into progressive citizens. It also teaches me some responsibility in my own life as well as theirs. :)